breath a little better....

I am a feet snuggler....I have to wrap my feet under the person behind me, if my toes are warm, I sleep well....... apparently my Mom is the say way, so we snuggled our feet and I was out like a light. The Lord blessed all of us girls with a wonderful rest. Much needed.

My aunt talked to the ICU nurse and they said he is awake, I jerked on my clothes....barely brushed my hair and got out the door......

What a trooper, I walked in and there he was, hooked up to the ventilator, tied down to the bed, so helpless..... a "necessary evil" is what they call it, basically it necessarily sucks!!!! He was in so much pain, they stopped his pain meds so they could see if he can actually breath on his own ..... So now...he has a tube down his throat, tube up his nose and a incision from stem to sternum....barely any pain medicine....lets just say he was not a happy camper.....His little feet were so cold.....I tucked them under my shirt to keep them warm and waited there with him. No one in the family wanted to see him like that..... but I know that I wouldn't want to be alone if it were me. He couldn't speak for the tubes were down his throat, and I didn't speak because there was enough words exchanged as I looked into his eyes......

"Can I pray Uncle Larry? Can I invite the Holy Spirit into this situation this morning?"

He said yes with his eyes..... and we prayed.......

suddenly we were interrupted by the doctor, he opened the door and said," Mr.Smith, I have come in to take out your ventilator, just let me give you something for the pain first."

My uncle looked at me with his eyes......smiled as well as he could and pointed UP.....to God.

I smiled and said,"He is so faithful, isn't He?"

I had to leave the room this time, I couldn't watch them take that out, but he wasn't alone, Jesus was there with him.....when they were finished I came back in to his sun shiny face and he whispered," Ang, will you hold my feet again?"

"Of course I will......"

I held his cold little feet until he feel asleep peacefully........

A dear friend of mine said something to me that really made me look at things A WHOLE lot differently. He said, in so many words, that not only is God a BIG GOD and fully able , but he is a loving God and totally willing and wanting. That made me look at things in such a different way, YES, God can heal and YES, God can turn this situation around, but the most amazing thing is, it's because he WANTS to. He loves my Uncle more than I love my Uncle. When no one can handle seeing him hurt, Jesus is there beside him wrapping himself in His compassionate love. The almighty Father who is in love with His child.

Glory to you God......