Fell asleep on the couch tonight......

It was one of those lazy evenings when you don't even want to open your mouth to talk, but instead wish that empty cartoon balloons just pop near your mouth and get filled with what you want to speak. It was quiet in my house tonight and I was cuddled on the couch with my favorite little pillow that my mother gave to me, peaceful music from the ZEN channel on satellite TV playing in the background and contentment was washing over my body after a long long day. In other words, I was at peace with this moment, I then started thinking about how powerful God is to orchestrate this entire world , attend to EVERYONE'S problems, answer EVERYONE'S prayers, be in love with ALL of His children at the same time and I am sure never gets a moments rest....but still finds time in His busy schedule to make sure that I have a moment of rest like this. I have to say He is definitely the Master and Father of Time Management!!!!

I must have drifted off into a small slumber.....

Those coloured scripts in my thought bubbles seemed to have attracted God's attention and I could hear a voice in my living room. I didn't expect His arrival to be so undramatic. I expected a flash of thunder and lightning followed by His presence in a mystic halo accompanied by a LOUD TRUMPET type of voice. But God was meeting me in the place that I was feeling inside, so instead I found a young man with a long white moustache and T shirt spelling G-O-D staring back at me. (now I know I was dreaming) His eyes were twinkling and I found the entire air between us to be charged with something like static electricity. Bubbles seemed to form from his head too and it read - "follow me". He walked through the wall, leaving 'His' shaped hole in it. I carefully stepped through the wall to find a colorful, grassy forest full of promises and possibilities. Tender, fresh and warm sunlight gleamed through the clouds and the magical place stood its place beside God, holding the innocence of a new born world.

And then I woke up.

What a cool little dream God gave to me.......But His promises and possibilities are real... "Follow Me" he says............Thank you , Father.

A prayer from a thankful Mother....

Lord,

I want to start by saying Thank you. You have given me the amazing opportunity to look after and raise up 2 of the most amazing children I have ever known. And I know that you agree, because they are yours. I know they do not belong to me.

Lord, sometimes when I look at them and I see such amazing things in their future, the enemy tries to put fears in my way of sight. Help me to block them out, in the name of your son Jesus Christ. I do not want those fears to over whelm me or cause me to block them from learning and growing in the son and daughter that you want them to be.

Lord, you did such an amazing job on their hearts. I have never seen such unconditional love in my life, not since you gave your son to pay the price for our sins. I see your heart in them. I see your love flow through them.......it's a love that I could never teach.....I see YOU in them, Lord. When I look at them, even though I have never seen Your face, I can see some of Your features. Destiny has your smile.....Devon has your eyes....... they both carry so much of your personality. And what is even more amazing, is they both want to grow up to be just like their Father. YOU, Lord.

Lord, I promise to train them, best I can, to be disciples. To spread your word. To know you , to love you. To teach them your ways, to teach them whats right and instill in them to Never desire to do what is wrong. I will cherish every moment that I have to be a part of their growing.....

and when the time comes , Father...... I will give them back to you, so that they can do amazing things for your Glory in this world.

It will hurt....... but I will be so thankful.

Thank you Lord...... for allowing me to be in their lives.

In Jesus Name I pray all these things~

Amen

beautiful.....

I named my blog ..beautiful ,because I wanted to focus on the things of my life that are lovely and excellent, just as Philippians 4:8 encourages us to do."Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things."

As I've become more intentional about looking for the beauty around me, He is gently showing me that I should also seek to be beautiful. This has been a problem with me, never have I been able to truly align myself with such a word. Not because I didnt think I was pretty, but because "beautiful" holds much more meaning.....pretty is a lot easier to say. :-)

We decorate and polish ourselves to be beautiful based on our own standards of loveliness, everyone does this according to their culture and also depending on who we desire to please the most. In many ways, we all seek beauty and desire to present ourselves this , our homes, and our personal spaces in a way that reveals what we believe to be beautiful.

A special someone in my life, from time to time, tells me that I am beautiful and tries to help me see myself the way the Lord sees me. I want to see myself this way so that I can be secure in myself in order to be confident in who I am in CHRIST!

So I looked to His Word....1 Peter 3:3,4 focuses on meaning of the word beautiful which is this : generally pleasing and excellent. The Word shows me that this kind of beauty is far more important than any other kind of beauty. "Do not let your adorning be external-the braiding of the hair, the wearing of gold, or the putting on of clothing-but let your adorning be the hidden person of the heart with the imperishable beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which in God's sight is very precious." Now, obviously we are not being told in this verse that women are not to wear braided hair or jewelry. If that is what this passage is saying, than we cannot put on clothing either! No, I am thinking that this verse is telling us something very important; if we are going to put effort into adorning ourselves (and we are, aren't we!), then we should focus on what God says is beautiful, and purpose in our hearts to please Him. He says that adorning our hearts is more important than adorning our bodies. Because a beautiful spirit is imperishable. So what makes a beautiful spirit? Do I have a beautiful spirit? God says that gentleness and quietness is what makes a woman's spirit beautiful. That's awesome, God! Gentleness is what a women is made of......

We should all seek more after a beautiful heart than a beautiful outward appearance.

I think I can believe that God made me beautiful........