CARNIVORE HAMSTER....

Meet Rob, and please, don't let the cute little fuzzy face fool ya. It all began about 3 months ago, my 7 year old son , Devon, says he would like a bunny for a pet. I think he is at the perfect age to learn a little responsibility, so we went to the pet store to check them out. There were some cute little floppy eared bunnies there, but when held, they go crazy jackin' their feet back and fourth and clawing the crap out of you, Devon quickly decided against it. Right next to the cage were about 60 little fuzz balls running around, "What are those Mommy?" Devon asked. "Those are hamsters, Devon, but I think they bite!" I replied. A voice from behind me interrupts,"Oh Noooo, hamsters don't bite as long as you handle them frequently." So....... Devon picked 2. One black one that he named BIG and the cute little orange and white one....named ROB.

It has been a fun 3 months. Watching Devon take care of these hamsters has really impressed me. He wakes up every morning and spends time with them individually. He will bring them to me one at a time, " Say good morning to ROB, Mommy." and "Look Mommy, BIG is still half asleep, he was up all night on his wheel." BIG is his favorite hamster, he is big and fat and real lazy, he never runs from Devon, I really think he likes to be held.

ROB and BIG usually snuggle together in this little pod type thing. It is clear so you can see very well what they are doing. Two mornings ago, Devon calls out, "MOMMY....COME HERE...HURRY!" I knew the tone was pretty uneasy so I run fast.... He said," What is ROB eating?" I just saw something big and black.....pretty shocked myself I just said," Well baby, that looks like BIG" Devon lost it, ran to his bed and started to weep. I am watching in complete disgust, shocked-but obviously still a little interested, because I couldn't unglue my eyes!!! I mean ROB was digging into his BEST FRIENDS neck..... the ear was gone along with half of his face....it was indeed a sick site. So, I pry my eyes away and go to coddle Devon on the bed.... I look over and Rob came out of the pod, climbed to the highest point of the cage to clean himself....as if he was basking in the victory of his defeat. No sign of remorse what so ever! The sick part is that both of his pouches looked full. I have not fed them yet today..... so that could only mean that fragments of BIG's face is still stuffed in ROB's cheeks. SICK LITTLE CRITTER!!!!

I went on line to read about why hamsters eat each other, and apparently this is a known thing. You would think the pet store clerk would tell you that when selling 2 of these critters to a little boy. Prepare him for possibly finding one half eaten some day. :-(

ROB and BIG lived, what seemed like, a peaceful life together.....apparently ROB got sick of BIG's company..........and ate his face off.

I hope by reading this that you are aware of the carnivore nature is such small fuzzy little creatures.

YUCK

Just a Sunday....

Quite interesting, all that has been on my mind lately. Ever had a vision of who you are suppose to be, feel it strong, yet have NO clue what to do next? Sit back and wait on God. That's what I am doing.......


"Lord, ok, I know, you have a plan, any chance you ever thought about maybe possibly giving me a hint on what to do next? Not that you need my help or anything, and I am more than happy to let you take care of it all...... but dang, my heart is sitting on pins and needles. All I can think about in everything I do is "does this have anything to do with God's plan for me and my family?" Alright, I understand that you do not rush anything, and please know that I am not trying to rush you.....I am not even close to being ready..... but I need to know I am where you want me. If you could send a little raven to my window with a little note giving me a clue on the next step to take, that would be real nice...... I love you Father! In Jesus name I pray~ Amen"

Where have I been?

No where really? It's just the first real chance I have had to sit and write about whats going on or not going on in my life. The last couple weeks have been ridiculously busy with so much of doing a whole lot of nothing worth note....make sense? Not really... and that is exactly what I am talking about. Stay with me....this gets deeper. lol

My mind has just went blank lately when I come to blog....I am sorry to myself...but my taste of blog lately is like something of a piece of soggy cauliflower....my mind is full...and I have hit a bit of a wall with my words. I almost could start off each day with ,"Dear Diary , today I had 2 hard boiled eggs for breakfast and I brushed my bangs to the left for the first time......" but since I do not want to do that to myself.... I quickly sign off, saving myself the time and everyone else the space on the world wide web of information.

I suppose I should write in proper paragraphs with proper sentence structure and tell a coherent story, but I'm just not sure I could pull it off lately. And I have been in one of those moods where you just feel like scribbling outside the lines.

I battled a bit of the "bug" a couple days ago, but its safe to say I feel fine as frog hair today! Thank the Lord it didn't last as long as SOME people I know that had it for like 7 days. whew... I knew there was such a thing as "snapping out of it" they said it couldn't be done....but, I did it.
:-)

Well I will rescue you from my ramble.....

Goodnight! xoxox

My answer to your question.....

Dear Seeking Vision,

I decided to blog the answer to your email , just encase someone else may feel the way that we both did...a portion of your email stated, "My family wants nothing to do with Christ. I myself have no understanding of the whole thing. But I am trying to see what it is, so my family can receive this Holy Ghost that is talked about so often. I cry daily to God asking him to please show us something, anything. I donʼt want my babies to grow up looking to others. I want them to get answers right from the source. I mean if all these prophets and so forth in the Bible could hear his voice, why not us. I want God to talk to me and my family. How do I do this?"

Good morning my precious sister in Christ. I am NO counselor by far, but I know from my own experiences with Christ. I use to ask myself this same question. Then I started searching for the answer, just like you. I desired the Lord so much that I could not stop seeking the One who I heard was so madly in love with me. Then I got down on my knees and asked Jesus Christ into my heart. Made Him my Lord and my Savior. First ,know that the voice of the Lord will always be heard by His children. You have to accept Him as your Lord, ask Him into your heart as your personal Savior, become a child of the living God. Find a church of Jesus Christ and talk to someone there and have them pray with you and help get the answers to the questions you have in your heart.

John 18:37 says: Pilate therefore said to Him, "Are You a king then?" Jesus answered, "You say rightly that I am a king. For this cause I was born, and for this cause I have come into the world, that I should bear witness to the truth. Everyone who is of the truth hears My voice."

God never lets a thirsty soul run dry. KNOW THAT. If you are seeking Him, He is going to pour Himself into your life. Keep Seeking..... You are so precious to Him and He speaks to you more times before you even open your eyes than we can speak to him in a life time. The Holy Spirit is with you every second crying out to the Father in your defense and crying out to you for you to just lay your issues at His feet, He truly wants to guide you. Just let Him."you have not because you ask not" Matt 7:7 You have to just LISTEN. Open your ears to Him and close them to distraction that may be keeping you from His voice. His voice is so precious and full of love and hope. Never even a hint of condemnation. Most conversations will start with,' I love you ....." then followed by all He sees in you and wants for you. How full of purpose and worth your are to Him. How you are indeed His princess and wants you to walk in the honor of that name, a child of God. Sometimes when we pray, we are just going on and on and on and on and on.......we do not give God a chance to say one word. We do all the talking.........next time, in the peace and quiet of your bedroom, or even in the shower, your own special place....try to talk to Him a little....but then say,"ok Daddy, its your turn, you have my full attention" Then just keep silent. You will hear His voice. It will burrow up deep from with in you....it may only be a few words of encouragement at first...or it may just be Him telling you He loves you and He hears you.....whatever it is.....I promise it will wash over you like living water. And you will fall deeply in love with Him. And you will make more and more and more "dates" with just you and the Lord. And you will get to know His voice, the more you read His word, His precious love letter, and pray and conversate with Him. Before you know it, you will sometimes see HIM starting the conversation. :-) How amazing, the eternal one, WANTING to start a conversation with us. :-) wow...... You are so precious to Him......I can feel His excitement already....He is so happy that you want to hear His voice....He is so in love with you!!!! Had to reply to your note..... I Love you and I pray that you open up to the Lord and enjoy the time in the arms of your Father......

Happily His Princess

Dear Lord

Thank you for your love and protection. Lord I pray that I will learn to reach into your arms like a child to her father. I thank you for being here with me.....even though I do NOTHING to deserve your love. I love to be here with you right now in this moment. I am so in love with your pressence.

Lord forgive me for all that I am and all that I do...


transform my wounds into opportunities to glorify you.


I love you Father....and I need you.....today.......and every other day. Lord what is your will in my situation? Show me the light at the end of this tunnel. Please? Just a glimpse... and I will hold my head up higher and walk with purpose.....actually...I will anyway. I am yours. Your will be done.


Happily Your Daughter~

Angela

Me a Masterpiece?

Most of my life I have focused on the things in which I am not. My flaws and the things that I lack that the other girls do not. I am not talking about my body, I am talking more about self esteem and a sense of being a real women. Confidence of beauty (within), comfort in my own body(who I am), the ability to be in a room surrounded by other women and not feel completely out of place. So I lived the best I could in trying to compensate in various ways. I got along with everyone, eager to please....I strived to be a good daughter and friend. I never stopped until I achieved every goal that I started. And to do the absolute best of my ability, and I never took it very well if my ability was just NOT good enough to cut it. But looking back I notice that underlining all that I lack was the gnawing feeling that I will never really be anyone special, or valuable to anyone else. This feeling affected everything I did. More importantly, I think it affected the way I viewed God. I do not think I ever viewed Him inside as making everything PERFECT.....after all ....He did make me. And the more I heard how loving God really was, the more I looked at myself as if I had committed some sin that I felt had disqualified me for a life of that value and purpose that God had for everyone else.

Since then I have gotten to know my Father God and how He does not make mistakes. How He is the true forgiving substance in my life that washes out the thoughts of being worthless. Maybe the things in which I always thought were flaws, were just the framing for the work of art that He is making in my life....the masterpiece, no less, that He wants to create in me. I was fearfully and wonderfully made..... You know that every TRUE artist likes to choose the frame that best displays his work! It was not a mistake that I am the way I am. If God wanted me to fit in with other women, or walk , talk, act, or look a certain way, He would have made me that way.

We all need to look at ourselves this way. We are the canvas on which He wants to display beauty, and the kind of person we are is the perfect frame for the Artist's work.

Accepting this, well.........working on accepting this concept means I have to look at myself in an entirely new way, and that is not easy, particularly because I have been trying to not notice the things that I dislike about who I am for so long. Now I need to try to embrace who I am and truly discover who God made me to be. So I am now trying to shift my perspective until I can look at myself from God's viewpoint. Sometimes God has a funny way of letting me know how He sees me, and I have to say......I get surprised by what he sees. My vision of His view is still not very clear. :-)

It is so neat to know that He can take the broken pieces of any life and create out of them a work of art that will bring glory to Him and blessings to others. He can take even the wounds dealt to you by both circumstances and others and use them for His glory. I just need to put myself in God's hands, then I know that nothing can keep Him from turning my life into the beautiful creation He always intended it to be.

"Lord, Help me see myself as you see me........so that you are able to reveal Your power, glory, love and even "creativity" in this world through me. :-)Help me to not get in the way of your work in me. Forgive me for ever thinking that maybe I was not some of your best work. Forgive me for not always believing that I could live as a masterpiece through the blood of your son Jesus Christ. In your Holy name I pray these things~ Amen"

2 Corinthians 12:7-10